for now

i am tired
i am no longer capable of being nice
i am spent
i am not sure my life is ever going to get better
will we have a family together again?
why is mike doing so poorly this week?
i want to swear and scream and swear some more...
i am done
i don't want to talk
i want action
i want things to be okay again
i want to wake up happy
i want to think about others again
i want to understand
i want to see the good
i want to not wake up in the middle of the nite
i want to be a good friend again
i want to not worry
there has to be an end to this season