Wednesday, September 24, 2008

for now

i am tired
i am no longer capable of being nice
i am spent
i am not sure my life is ever going to get better
will we have a family together again?
why is mike doing so poorly this week?

i want to swear and scream and swear some more...
i am done
i don't want to talk
i want action
i want things to be okay again
i want to wake up happy
i want to think about others again
i want to understand
i want to see the good
i want to not wake up in the middle of the nite
i want to be a good friend again
i want to not worry
there has to be an end to this season

5 comments:

Jamie said...

What do need me to do...a dinner night??

I am sorry girld..please smile:)))

Kristi said...

Ditto Jamie, what do you need from us? You have to remember that on a day to day basis things can really suck, but the general trajectory of your family is good. Mike is getting help and that is huge progress even if it feels like an ant's pace. Hang in there sistah!

Bfun1 said...

Anything I can do for you?
Mike is where he needs to be and he will have ups and downs and no one may understand why....hopefully he will rebound and keep improving!
God has a plan!
Oh and yell if you need toooo, scream, cuss, stomp your feet, kick, cry....you deserve to let go of some of your heartache and anxieties! GOD UNDERSTANDS!

Addyson Lane's Mommy said...

Just thought I would drop a little note to let you know I am thinking of you. When I read this is makes me think of what an old friend use to say to me - "chin up and boobs out!" Even when I was going through some bad times it would put a smile on my face. Hope it will do the same for you.

Becky said...

thinking of you ♥